Look. I try to be positive. I do. But the longer I’m unemployed, the harder it is. And I know it’s the economy and I know this is a monumentally BAD time in the job market, but that doesn’t make me feel less of a loser and bump on the log of society. I’ve sent out zillions of resumes into the ether and it’s so bad that I actually get psyched when I get a rejection letter because that at least means someone looked at my application before rejecting me.
I try new ideas. I’ll try anything at this point. I NEED A JOB. I’ve been to numerous networking events, joined groups, worked with head hunters and job fairs. The one today was such a monumental waste of time, I spent most of the trip home unsuccessfully fighting back tears. A local council member put together a job fair at a neighborhood high school gym. Some of the companies I was told about didn’t even bother to show up. A few of them that did weren’t even hiring. There was a military recruiter there and when I politely declined her propaganda, she got pissed and let it be known that I’m uncooperative. Please. The line to be a Payless shoe salesperson was out of control so I went to the next line which was the MTA. As soon as I approached, the lady looked me up and down and said with an attitude “We’re not hiring administrative”. OK “What are you hiring for?” I asked nicely. “Only people with vocational high school” she answered dismissively. “What about regular old high school?” I asked. “NO” she snapped. Ok… next table. They wanted me to sell health insurance. I don’t know anybody that can afford it so I moved on. The table after that wasn’t hiring. The table after that was the Brooklyn Chamber of Commerce with a packet of job openings. I got psyched and went over to a table to see what I’m qualified for. I figure with my 12 years of experience, there has to be something. Of the 30 positions listed, I have experience with one, Executive Assistant. The position pays $25,000 less than my last job, requires a BA and 1-2 years of experience. Really. So they want someone to spend $100,000 on a degree so they can be an assistant? Seriously? I guess it doesn’t matter that I can do the work blindfolded with my hands tied behind my back. I don’t have the piece of paper that says it because apparently my resume is just hogwash. So I applied for it and a few other positions I have a snowball’s chance in hell of getting. The remaining tables were career centers and training programs that I grabbed the literature for so I can go to them next week and see if I have any better luck. And at the end was the MTA (again?). This person was nicer and handed me a packet of available job openings for bus operators, part-time toll collectors for B&T positions, and radio cctv maintainers. What the hell, I’ll apply for those too. The B&T might be kinda fun. The entire job fair took less than an hour and I was back out in the sunshine feeling infinitely more like a loser than when I walked in. I’m running out of ideas and hope. There’s got to be something I’m not doing or seeing and I don’t know what it is. What I do know is that my unemployment compensation ENDS at the end of July and then I’m really, really screwed.